Small acts of disregard, stacked, become an avalanche. I need permission over proof, to finish editing p.iii, and to get this manuscript in an agent’s hands.
Tag: trauma
I Did It: Yes to Every Chapter
Turns out finishing doesn’t feel like triumph. It feels like setting something heavy down. I finally finished the first draft, and my body knows it.
Mannequin Skin (and Memoir Update!)
Mannequin Skin, a 3-part poem, written at the edge of goodbye. You don’t need the memoir to feel it, but soon, you’ll have it. Thanks for reading to the bone.
Confession isn’t Closure, Silence isn’t Safety
Part III is a loop: confession, silence, hope, repeat. Writing it means reliving that painful waiting; truth without closure, love without repair.
Protecting Dad’s Feelings Cost Me My Own
I thought protecting Dad’s feelings was right. It wasn’t. It was quiet self-abandonment. If you tiptoe around someone’s feelings long enough, you lose your own.
“I Love You So”
I love you so. And I was so scared you wouldn’t love me back once you believed them. Did you?
Keep Your Eyes Peeled for Spiders
I used to convince myself: if only I had squashed that spider when she first bared her fangs, Dad’s death could’ve been prevented. But I know better now.
Mary Karr’s Magic: How The Art of Memoir Unlocked My Soul
I saw my heartache in print; only, it wasn’t mine. These were the experiences of a 1960s family in Texas. Karr’s familial hurts merely echoed mine.
From Science to Soul: The Grieving Brain’s Guide to Death
The Grieving Brain delves into the scientific and emotional aspects of grief. I cover intrusive thoughts, avoidance, counterfactual thinking, and rumination.
Watch Your Step: Monkey See, Monkey Do
After being told my Adderall dose was comparable to methamphetamine, I had a few decisions to make.